justanotherregulargirl's Blog

I believed she'd always be there for me. I believed she'd never turn her back on me. I believed she'd never let go. I believed......... in her.

 I depended upon her. She was my confidante, my morale-booster, my playmate, my rock. She was the one constant in my life full of changes. Every little secret was blurted out in her presence, every secret tear shed in her presence, every heartbreak nursed in her presence, every fear confessed in her presence, every hurdle crossed in her presence.

Amidst all this, I never realised I took her for granted. Never realised she had a life too. Never realised that she wouldn't be there...forever.

Knowing that the one thing i depended upon isn't there, i'm hollowed out. I have accepted this/had to accept this hard truth. But I don't know what to do anymore....where do I go when I'm happy, sad, exasparated, frustrated......where do I go when I need a friend.

She, on the other hand, has a whole new life of her own. I don't think she ever really thinks about me anymore. I don't want to sound clingy at all...because I'm NOT. But, I can't help wondering ,have I been foolish all along? 

Now that I need a friend more than ever before, I have noone.

Earlier, I used to think that nothing hurt more than u're lover leaving you.